Alcohol and drug
treatment is one of the most difficult situations that you or a loved
one can be in. By the time I needed alcohol treatment, I was so far
gone that it was next to impossible for anyone to convince me that I
had a problem. Of course, I had been in detox before, and once a friend
had talked me into coming along to a 12-step program, but I was almost
completely convinced that none of this was for me and that I had no
problem at all with drug abuse.
Finally, my friends did an intervention to get me into an alcohol
treatment program. One day, they all came up to me as I woke up, hung
over and grumpy. They told me that I had a problem and that the only
way to treat it was to really enroll myself in a drug and alcohol
treatment center. I was, needless to say, furious, and tried to kick
them out but when, after my fight with my friends and families, I
almost immediately went to my bar to get myself another beer,
I realized that they were right, and that I needed alcohol
treatment more than anyone.
The people at the alcohol treatment center were friendly, and tried to
get us psyched up. Jesus Christ, I felt like a kid at summer camp with
counselors pulling balloon animals out of their ass just to put a smile
on my face. I know that in reality, the alcohol treatment program was
nowhere near that bad, but it is hard for me to ask for and accept
help, and all of these different people trying to tell me about how to
change my life got a little stale very quickly. Finally, one of the
therapists sat me down and told me that I didn't have to be there, and
that the reason that I was there was that, on some level, I knew that I
needed to change. He told me that no one could change me but myself and
that, deep down inside, I had to find the reason that I was there in
the first place, and the strength that would let me use the
alcohol treatment program to begin a new phase in my life. I know,
cliché as hell, but wouldn't you know it, the guy was right.
I've been sober for five years!